my 16th lament: it's all my fault

I know there are some secrets that should really be kept as secrets but somehow i haven't learned from my mistakes. in doing so, I hurt the one I like the most. Somehow I always end up hurting this guy and I don't know if he'll ever forgive me. I really hope he does even though what I did was the worst act of betrayal I could do for a love one. sigh...