My 33rd smile: July Why So Blue

July

Why so blue?

Don't you know that I love you?

I loved you once

and still I do

as friends forever, yes I do. :)

You make me smile

with your "not" silly statements

Stated around like some treasured truths

Oh, July

I'm proud of you

On your birthday I can't say

these words, lest it'll sway

the firm emotion that came my way

so I'll love you my July friend

A friend but nonetheless loved.

August

My 29th lament: Worry

He's troubled and I don't really know how to comfort him. I feel like I can't find the words right enough to share his worry and yet I feel that he is still thinking of me even when he himself is bugged about something. Sigh....

I wish I can do something about it somehow....

I love you D.

my 28th lament: Sinners

as a couple we are sinners

but apart

we can serve the Lord

blemished, but still

trying to find

our own Heaven

my 27th lament: Envy

I know how I always say that envy is a terrible thing and its something one shouldn't really take care of... but I can't help being envious of the graduates and not really because I'm not graduating but because of the things the people who love them do for them.

Some will come home to surprise parties and congratulations. Some with cakes home made. Some with banners. The happiness that everyone has for them would be evident but when I graduate, I'd come home to normality. Nothing will ever make me see how unique or special my graduation is. Kind of sad but if I had to console myself, it would be that lesser pressure on me. Coz no one would be expecting anything... but... I wish someone would atleast. :)

my 32nd smile: its been so long

Wow, its been so long since I've posted here but I haven't regretted it. Being in a public blog encourages me to write a variety of topics and read on a lot of topics too.

Graduation for our batch (except me, of course) is coming this March 21. I'm happy for them but somehow I'm feeling lonely coz they'll all be leaving me now...

But oh well, there is a time for everything and I'm excited of how things will go.

As author of Bernel Zone said, Onward!

My 31st smile: An epitaph

I've thought of death more than once or twice and I've always wanted to be cremated but I just read The Zahir by Paulo Coelho and wanted to add or maybe change the epitaph I want IF EVER I do get a tombstone.

"My day was good, let night Fall"

My 30th smile: Going Public

Its been a while since I've started blogging but I've always kept it a secret. And still I'll keep this blog one, after all it was designed to house my diary sort of. But I'm trying to keep a public blog for this year. Something I've been thinking about. Its going well for the first day and I'm optimistic it will be going well for some time. Maybe I'll be posting more often there too but its something to smile about.

I just received news today that I might be going to Australia in October. Wow, a chance to travel to a different country. Its making me feel ecstatic. I'll pray for it. :)

Dear God, if it is in your will, let me go to Australia. Amen. :)

My 29th smile: Its a New Year again

Rain greeted the day after January one, not exactly my type of weather. It kind of brings about a melancholic mood with it. But rain is most often good, some see it as a symbol of blessing from the heavens - a sign of good things to come. And that is how I'd like to associate it with.

2010 brought so many things to me. And also made me lose something precious. Something lost could not be replaced again but I have no regrets. :)

Well, here's a couple of highlights in my journal that I found out while rereading them. ^_^

1. Doctor N. L. R. Yes! I really want to be a doctor, I want to be a doctor for children. :)

2. A. He may snore, he may be way older (not really), too mature (sometimes) but at the end of the day I like to look at his silly face and wonder why I love this guy. XD

3. M. some secrets are better left unsaid but still I can get a secret laugh from them. hehehehe

4. E. Well he went back with N. Proving that he really loves her after all.

5. I had a serious argument with a team mate and ended up hurting a lot of people. Good thing it got mended and we're all right now

6. My Playboy of an uncle finally got married! And they're happy too. :)

7. M. got a boyfriend after... was it 2 years since the last? then broke up yesterday. nyahahhaa

8. I joined my last youth camp and last singles conference this year too. Actually I hope they won't be the last.

9. I found a group of girls I could relate with and bonded with them. :)

10. I decided I want to learn household chores more.