I've thought on things and I've always wanted to jump a little higher, take the road up the mountain... you get the gist. One thing that has been constant in my life though is my love for children (Okay, so I do bully them once in a while *wink).
I know I've always been a bit (a bit?) lost, soul searching... etc... I wanted to find something in my life that I will pursue no matter what... But what I want to pursue seems to be too much for me.
I thought about it during duty in the Dengue Observation Room. Why don't I become a pediatrician? I've actually imagined it. And I know it sounds like one of those fleeting goals again but I think I've actually got something concrete right now.
Comparing it to my previous goals which were somewhat more on proving myself to others, this goal is to serve the people most close to my heart - kids.
Its something I've never thought of before - to be a doctor. But I think I can handle it. I hope to God I can handle it.
The thing is though... med school is expensive and I don't mean only the tuition. I'm thinking about this more and more and I would like to pray for it.
Dear God, it seems I've found something I want to do. Something I haven't thought about, ever yet its something that my heart agrees with. Lord, I've always been one of those lost sheep but I hope and pray that if this path is mine to take then I'll take it Lord. Lord, I can see too many obstacles ahead, finances, stress, frustrations... yet, I have decided to trust in you Lord and its time, I let you take over my life. It is yours Lord as it has always been yours since the beginning. This I pray in Jesus name. Amen.
