I'm confused and sad. i feel like I'm in a relationship because i love the fact that i am loved and that the person i chose is "safe". I think of this other person and end comparing to someone that would only take me for granted if I chose him (not that he likes me that way).
I always said that love can be learned and that one should choose the person who loves him/her most rather than the one you love most but in my mind I am defying my own advices and think that I am being unfair. I am in a mental debate and I fear I might just get lost in the process, I don't want to hurt him yet am I not slowly hurting him if I increase his hopes? He might really get hurt if I disappoint him or reject him one day. I don't think I love him that much but I really do care about his feelings and I feel that I could be happy with him but am I really making the right choice? Even if the one I (think) I love does not love me but as long as he is happy then I am happy too right?
sigh....
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